a little taste...

I have a song/poetry journal. And i thot maybe i should post some of them... i don't know why. It's all so very personal. Just a bunch of words brought to existence because of things that have occured in my life. My life isn't horrible... it's actually quite good. But sometimes i just need to write. Write about anything and everything. So here's a glimpse into my heart and mind.

12/27/2006

"Begging for affection.

Dying for a cure.
Praying for a sign.
Living for a lie.

Living in a lie.

Living lies.

Lies fed to me daily.

Lies i so willingly believe.

You aren't worth anything...

me

You aren't beautiful...

me

No one wants to be with you.

No one wants you.

No one.

me."

1/08/2007

"When does the pain stop?

It creeps up on me,

Suddenly stealing the air from my lungs.

Wringing out my heart until there's nothing left.

But there's always something left."

2/19/2007

"This is not me.

I play games.

I sing songs.

I cuddle with my friends.

I go on walks through the little town we have created in the forest.

I give band-aids to kids.

I pray over the day ahead.

I take naps with the windows open.

I listen to the sounds of summer-

the birds outside.

the merry-go-round.

kids splashing.

yelling.

laughing.

cannon ball after cannon ball.

This is not me.

Here is not my home."