just some things...

I did a lot of looking back tonight. I was pretty bored and was looking for inspiration to write a new song. Well... after pulling together what i think is a pretty awesome song... i continued reminiscing. I found old journal entries, old pictures, etc. It is amazing to see where the Lord has brought me. I look at my friends around me who are hurting and who see no way out. My friends that think these things will never end, and that there is nothing to look forward to. I TOTALLY USED TO BE THERE! And now look at me! Things are great! I am HAPPY! I just wish i could enforce that in their brains... MAKE them see these things!

Anyway, one thing i found tonight caught my eye. I have a journal that i just fill with quotes and verses and song lyrics... things that ring true in my life at that time. And here is something i wrote down from a book:

"We hide behind our make-up. We hide behind our humor. We hide with angry silences and punishing withdrawls. We hide our truest selves and offer only what we believe is wanted, what is safe... We hide because we are afraid. We have been wounded, and wounded deeply. People have sinned against us, and we have sinned as well. To hide means to remain safe, to hurt less. At least that is what we think. And so by hiding we take matters into our own hands. We don't return to our God with our broken and desperate hearts."

I remember what i was going through at the time when i wrote this down. How true it is! It was true then, and it is still true today! I need to stop hiding. Get ready America.... what you see is what you get!

Well, i really should go to bed now... i have an early morning hair appointment and then lots to do before the weekend. More later...